you know who you are

I drove yesterday, down 5, past all the farmland and through the grapevine. I drove past cows and hills and countless gas stations.
I saw the wind turn the long grasses into oceans. I saw the horizon filled with clouds, puffy clouds that churned and moved across the sky. I saw lightning sizzle, purple. I saw the sun setting in my rearview mirror, and it was like having to say goodbye again.

I don't know how long six months is going to seem if a day feels like forever. I hate that I can feel how far away you are to me, by inches. Its all I can do to hold onto the pieces you put back together.

I love you.

running out of reasons to stay here

I miss you!
...and your short hair, and your smile, and your heartfelt laugh.
...and the color of your eyes, and your strong hands, and how you calm me.
...and the things you whisper, and how you hold me, and your softness.

When can I feel you around me again? When will I get to kiss that part of your lip that is mine to keep? How many times today have I thought to myself 'this hurts too much...'

I can't wait to get to love you again.

I need you like the flower needs the bee.